640px-Rubber_duckies_So_many_ducks“Do not let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do.” — John Wooden

I want all the yarn and to knit all the socks, shawls and sweaters that catch my eye. I want the stories and characters that dance in my head to come to life on the page right now. I really, really want the enclosure for my shower to be delivered so this remodel job will be done.

I want all sorts of things, so many that there are times I feel as I will crumble beneath the weight of it. So much to do, and, as I face another birthday, a sure and steady decreasing supply of time. No matter how hard I work, I will never tell all those stories or knit all those patterns. This is fact and no amount of wishing will make it otherwise.

What I can do is show up at the page every day, tell as many stories as I can, even if I’m the only one who ever sees some of them. I can knit to relax and help refill the well, creating objects for myself and those I care for. It’s on me to do this, to make the most of what I can do and not let the specter of what might be beyond my grasp hold me back. That’s what part of this November insanity is about; letting go and seeing what I can do.

I still want that shower enclosure, though.