“Have you ever seen a little girl run so fast she falls down? There’s an instant, a fraction of a second before the world catches hold of her again… A moment when she’s outrun every doubt and fear she’s ever had about herself and she flies. In that one moment, every little girl flies. I need to find that again. Like taking a car out into the desert to see how fast it can go, I need to find the edge of me… And maybe, if I fly far enough, I’ll be able to turn around and look at the world… And see where I belong.”
― Kelly Sue DeConnick
A lot of people don’t like the fact NaNoWriMo happens in November because of the complication of Thanksgiving and the start of the annual Holiday Insanity. I always welcome it for one very important reason. My birthday marks the beginning of the second week and every year I do NaNo means that I spend at least part of that day doing one of the things I love most in the world: writing.
I generally take some time off to do something fun — this year, we’re planning on seeing Crimson Peak, which has eluded us the past two weeks — but there will be a portion of the day spent in front of my computer, fingers on the keyboard. It’s my gift to me, putting myself first in the midst of any other calls on my attention. It’s a reminder and affirmation that, yes, this is who I am and what I do, no matter what other roles I play.
Today’s quote is from the first issue of Captain Marvel (2014), written by Kelly Sue DeConnick, with art by David Lopez and colors by Lee Loughridge. Titled, “Higher, Further, Faster, More” those words, which appear on the issue’s final pages, have become something of a mantra among many women in comics fandom. It’s a call to find the wonder in ourselves that time and the world have often ground out of us, to be more. That’s what we’re doing with NaNoWriMo. We’re running so fast and we’re going to fall down at some point; if nothing else, the month will end and this experience will be done, pulling us back to earth. But if we keep running this month, there will be those moments when we fly.
I wouldn’t miss those moments for anything in the world. Happy Birthday to me.